Carlyboi's rants

bicthes.

2007-04-08T21:28:51Z

ugh
i just sat down to eater dinner with a bunch of 80 year olds.
''GROW YOUR HAIR HUNNY YOU LOOK LIKE ONE OF THOSE BIKER DYKES''
''ARE YOU A LESBBIANNN DEARY?''
-_-
it was good though my mommy made twice baked potatoes, so i guess those were my breakfast ^^
kristie just gave me this diet thing that could possible make me lose maybe ten pounds in a week, 17 lbs at the most
o.o
bless her.
i miss her, but i cant get caught up in such drama again. i dont even think she wants to talk to me anyway. i wish amanda would talk to me, i miss her.
heres the diet i plan on following

Sacred Heart Diet

This 7-day eating plan, the Sacred Heart Diet can be used as often as you like. If correctly followed, it will clean out your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well-being. After only 7 days of this process, you will begin to feel lighter by at least 10 pounds and possibly 17 pounds, and experience an abundance of energy.

SOUP:

* 1 or 2 cans of stewed tomatoes
* 3 plus large green onions
* 1 large can of beef broth (no fat)
* 1 pkg. Lipton Soup mix (chicken noodle)
* 1 bunch of celery
* 2 cans green beans
* 2 lbs. Carrots
* 2 Green Peppers

Season with salt, pepper curry, parsley, if desired, or bouillon, hot or Worcestershire sauce. Cut veggies in small to medium pieces. Cover with water. Boil fast for 10 minutes. Reduce to simmer and continue to cook until veggies are tender. This soup can be eaten anytime you are hungry during the week. Eat as much as you want, whenever you want. This soup will not add calories. The more you eat, the more you will lose. You may want to fill a thermos in the morning if you will be away during the day. DRINKS:

* Unsweetened juices
* Tea (also herbal)
* Coffee
* Cranberry juice
* Skim milk
* Water, water, water

DAY ONE
Any fruit (except bananas). Cantaloupes and watermelon are lower in calories than most other fruits. Eat only soup and fruit today.
DAY TWO
All vegetables. Eat until you are stuffed with fresh raw, cooked or canned veggies. Try to eat green leafy veggies and stay away from dry beans, peas or corn. Eat veggies along with the soup. At dinnertime tonight reward yourself with a big baked potato and butter. Don't eat any fruits through today.
DAY THREE
Eat all the soup, fruit and veggies you want. Do not have a baked potato. If you have eaten as above for three days and not cheated, you should find that you have lost 5-7 pounds.
DAY FOUR
Bananas and skim milk: Eat at least 3 bananas and drink as much milk as you can today, along with the soup. Bananas are high in calories and carbohydrates, as is the milk but on this particular day, your body will need the potassium and carbs. Proteins and calcium to lessen the cravings for sweets.
DAY FIVE
Beef and tomatoes: you may have 10 to 20 ounces of beef and a can of tomatoes, or as many as 6 tomatoes on this day. Eat the soup at least once today.
DAY SIX
Beef and veggies, eat to your heart's content of the beef and veggies today. You can even have 2-3 steaks if you like with green leafy veggies but no baked potato. Be sure to eat the soup at least once today.
DAY SEVEN
Brown rice, unsweetened fruit juice and veggies, again, be sure to stuff yourself and eat the soup. You can add cooked veggies to your rice if you wish.

By the end of the 7th day, if you have not cheated on this diet, you should have lost 10 to 17 pounds. If you have lost more than 17 pounds, stay off the diet for two days before resuming the diet again.

This diet is fast. The secret lies within the principle that you will burn more calories than you take in. It will flush your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well-being. This diet does not lend itself to drinking any alcoholic beverages at any time. Because of the fat build-up in your system. Go off the diet at least 14 hours before any intake of alcohol.

Due to the variety of digestive systems in individuals, this diet will affect everyone differently. After day three, you will have more energy than when you began, if you do not cheat. After being on the diet for several days, you will find that your bowel movements have changed. Eat a cup of bran or fiber. Although you can have black coffee with this diet, you may find that you don't need caffeine after the third day.

The basic fat burning soup can be eaten anytime you feel hungry during the seven days. Eat as much as you wish. Remember the more you eat, the more you will lose. You can eat broiled, boiled or baked chicken instead of the beef. Absolutely no skin on the chicken. If you prefer, you can substitute broiled fish for the beef on only one of the beef days. You need the high protein in the beef for the other days.

Continue on the diet as long as you wish and feel the difference both mentally and physically.

DO NOT
No bread, alcohol, carbonated drinks (including diet drinks). Remember, absolutely no fried foods.
DO
Drink plenty - at least 6 to 8 glasses - of water a day, as well as any combination of the following beverages: black coffee, unsweetened fruit drinks, cranberry juice and skim milk.

This diet comes from the Sacred Heart Memorial Hospital that is used for overweight heart patients in order to lose weight rapidly, usually prior to surgery.

sounds to good to be true....
i'll write later

back ^^

diet tips

* Pick one place at home and work that you will do all your eating. Be sure you are seated. Don't eat anywhere but in that place. Enjoy your food by sitting down and eating slowly. Sitting down focuses your attention more directly on the activity of eating. By eating in the same place you identify and associate that place with the idea that it is the only area in which you should eat.
* Shop for Groceries only after eating. You will be less likely to buy foods impulsively – especially foods you don’t need.
* When you shop for groceries stick to your shopping list. This helps you guard against impulse buying. Make sure you list is complete and do not buy any extra food items.
* Watch food labels. Foods with a high percentage of fat (or carbohydrates that are sugars) will slow down your weight loss program Don't just count grams, count percentage of total calories that are fat or sugars.
* Don't think that just because you are eating low fat/low calorie foods that you can eat all that you want. The calories still add up and must be burned off regardless of what kind of food you eat. Balance is the key.
* If you are going to a restaurant, decide ahead of time what you will be eating. Stick to it.
* Exercise – If you want to stay healthy and make weight loss permanent you just cant do without exercise. Along with cutting down on the fat you eat exercising regularly may be your best ally in improving your all around health and bringing your weight loss under control.
* Water is essential to all bodily functions and has no calories. It is the perfect drink for dieters. You need eight 8 oz. glasses of water daily.
* Be happy: you're OK! Resisting all those tempting foods is NOT going to kill you.

* Let someone else be the walking garbage disposal: you are no longer responsible for eating up the leftovers after a meal.
* Success is when you can look beyond food...and look down and see your feet.
* Each day you stay on your weight-loss diet brings you closer to your weight goal.
* The purpose of getting together with people is to enjoy their company...not eating.
* Chart or graph your weight loss and serving selections.
* Take small servings - avoid gorging yourself.
* Consuming most calories in one big meal is the worst way to diet. Eat 4 or 5 small meals rather than in one all-out feeding frenzy.
* If your schedule only permits you to eat one major meal in a day, eat it in the morning to midday hours rather than afternoon/evening hours.
* Repeat: "I'm learning a way to live, not just a way to diet."
* Limit your time in the grocery store. The longer you stay, the more you will buy.
* Never starve yourself, especially before going out to eat (or you will binge). Never skip meals, you must have some kind of nourishment regularly or your body's starvation defences will kick in, lower your metabolism, and store fat.
* Be patient - it took years to gain weight; it takes time to lose weight.
* "Nibble" food and "linger" over drinks. Do the "Push Away From The Table Exercise."
* Chew your food completely: digestion begins in the mouth. Avoid "washing" half-chewed food down.
* Lose weight with a supportive friend or in a support group.
* Emphasize your weight loss triumphs and work towards making them more frequent
* Find a weight loss "buddy," club, or support group. This will help you stay with your weight loss program.
*

Use mustard on your sandwiches instead of mayonnaise. Mustard has no fat & very little calories while Mayo, is loaded with fat. If you just don’t like the taste of mustard, find a low-fat alternative, but avoid mayonnaise at all costs.
* Weigh yourself each week. Don't be worried about small daily changes in your weight. You shouldn't lose more than 1 - 2 pounds a week. There may be weeks when you don't lose weight. This is normal. Stay on your diet to lose weight.
* Bake, roast, or broil your food instead of frying. Remove all fat from meats and skin from poultry before cooking.
* Drink 6 to 8 glasses of water each day. This will help flush out your body while also suppressing your appetite
*

If you haven't done so already, switch to diet soft drinks. An average 12 Oz can of regular soda contains around 120 calories, while the diet version usually has one or zero. If you drink 3 cans a day, you'll be saving 360 calories right there. Now multiply that by 7 days a week, 30 days a month and 365 days a year... You'll be saving a lot of calories!
* Limit alcohol. Alcoholic drinks have many calories & little else.
* Schedule your exercise time just as you plan your other activities of the day. Treat this time as an important appointment you don’t want to miss
* Write your weight goal & post it where you'll see it everyday.
* You are responsible for what you do & what you eat.
* Eat to live, not live to eat. Overeating can KILL you!
* Don't give it up if you don't want to, just reduce your intake.

happeh easter?

2007-04-08T13:46:41Z

No happy fucking easter.
easter dosnt exist.
because jesus dosnt exist.
:D
my mom didnt give me candy, on this pitiful excuse for a holiday.
all i wanted was a choco bunny D:
'' WELL YOUR NOT FIVE ANYMOREE GET OVER ITT''
NEVAR.
ugh we're having a huge dinnner today.
its going to ruin everything.
my mom is going to make me eat and come out and say hi to everyone -_____-
ill finish this later, im tired.
and dont feel like ranting for much longer

carlyboi @ 2007-04-07T19:28:00

2007-04-08T02:28:49Z

i wanna fuck someone till the sun comes up.

^___________________^

2007-04-08T02:05:14Z

i saw kasey tonight at acme, i went to go see her.
she smiled at me.
and she flirted
i wish she'd stop playing with me
im such a whore

im fucked up.

2007-04-07T21:59:12Z

i dont know why, but i suddenly love venting out on this thing and writing obsessively. i just weighed myself today, and in the last three days ive lost 3 pounds. i cried i was so happy. this starvation method is working... i feel so hypocritical because i yell at sara for it. but im desperate to lose this weight.
i feel so miserable though. i havent eaten in over 42 hours, and i let myself have a slice of ham...
i know i sound whiney. but it does feel horrible. kristie wont leave me the fuck alone. she is trying to manipulate me, because she knows she can. dosnt she think im hurting enough? im not giving in. i want her and angela to have the life they planned out for themselves. im not going to think about it.
but i cant stop.
i dont know...
i feel so bored and lifeless. hopefully i can go to saras house tonight with arianna. her dad never lets us over anymore and i have no idea why..
he is always eager to get rid of her and dump her off at my house. but godforbid her dad let the lesbian over. you know, i wish i never would have told anyone i was gay. everyone dosnt let me come over anymore. i cant talk to the old friends i had. saras going to renfrew, a hospital for people with eating disorders. ima miss her. but i cant tell her that or shell take it weird. its so hard being friends with her because i always have to watch what i say and do... i wish i could just hug her just one time without her getting feelings of love and shit. i dont know.
im starting to get feeling really weird about arianna. i think im falling in love with her... but as far as i know, she dosnt know her sexuality, but if we ever broke up... i couldnt lose our friendship i dont know. shes just so goddamn beautiful. i cant stand it... and shes the sweetest girl i know. and she is still getting over fuckface charlie... argh.
i think i need to tell her. i can tell her anything, shell understand.
anyways, i have nothing to say, except i want my daddy back... i keep thinking about him.

my road to thin.

2007-04-07T14:57:01Z

so last night i went out with kasey and her girlfriend, had alot of fun. we went to the mall, and we saw alot of people so we had to stop and say hi and such, then we just kind of shopped, then went to bob evans to pick up her girlfriend, riley.
shes a really great girl, both of them. then we went to pick up pizza and went back rileys house and we all cuddled and took pictures and watched some movies.
and then kasey took off her boxers and oh my god...
i dont know if she was teasing me, because she knows i like her, and have for a while. she told me she liked me too, and was really afraid to talk to me for a long time till she made up some excuse to run into me so she could apoligize.
lol.
but she has a girlfriend, i really dont get it. she hasnt said anything regarding to liking me for about 3 weeks, but i dont know. maybe she was just playing with me. kasey could have way better looking girls than me anyway. her girlfriend is fucking gorgeous. they wont last long either though, because they fight constantly and kasey threats to dump her alot. and theyre engaged too though, but i dont know, i really hope/dont think it will last.
both kasey and her girlfriend made remarks about my weight, and it just made me more determined. i know i could get alot of girls if i was just thinner. im not an ugly person, but this weight makes me so ugly i cant stand it. i want some magic pill that will make it go away.
i started pushing away kristie again. i cant deal with her, seriously and i dont think she can deal with me either. the truth is, im scared. i know i can commit, but now i dont know if i want to. i want to experience lots of girls, and just live my life without being tied down. i just wanna be a teenager. plus shes fucking married, but sometimes i dont know if she takes marriage seriously, and that scares me too.
i dont want to think about her anymore.
i started talking to amanda again, and i forgot how much i missed her. before i started talking with kristie again, she was my whole world. we were great for each other, we really are. she really knows me. she really thinks alot of me too, and cares for me than any other girl has, this i am sure. since july of last year, i thought i was going to marry this girl. i really wanted to. i know its crazy, cause im young. but im young, and crazy, so im going to let it be. its just her mom refuses to let me see her now. sometimes i feel like shooting her mother seriously. theres no getting around this bat from hell, seriously. i dont know, i dont know, i just dont know. i just want her back...
anyways, as for my ''road to thiness'' is starting today. im vowing to spend 2 hours at the gym each day and only one meal a day, which will be something low carb ofcourse. it shouldnt be too hard... i havent been wanting to eat for a few weeks ago, cause my medicine and the fact im so determined and depressed.
anyways im going to go now

lyrics

2007-04-05T15:19:23Z

/www.moron.nl/lyrics.php?id=64886&artist=Shakira

english lyrics to '' la tortura'' they're really romantic in a sense.

copy and paste the link into your search thingy :]

videogasm

2007-04-05T15:05:16Z

im posting bette and tina for once :] theyre on the l word also

alice and dana, dont mind the music O.O
and here my favorite song ''la tortura'' by skakira

bitchfuck.

2007-04-05T14:47:30Z

ehh, not really in a good mood today. i
woke up and was stupid enough to
look in the fucking mirror. and to my
horror, it was proven that dreams dont
come true. so im basically really upset
right now. i cant stand being ugly anymore,
i really cant. i cant stand my weight.
why cant i just be the handsome girl i
want to be? i was considering diet pills,
ofcourse id have to steal them, but its
worth it. i wish i could look like moira/max
from the l word [ the woman poasted at the
top, her names daniela sea]. or shane
katherine moenning].
theyre both really attractive...
shane, is this woman, but this isnt from the
l word. this is a picture of her from another
show, at the bottom of the page, ion the videos.
but still.
im starting to look better
though, my hair is coming back :D
i shaved off january about 3 months ago
now, its basically looks like a skater boy haircut
oh well, im just waiting for it to get long now.
and i still go to the gym, i have lost some weight
but deffinatly not enough, i hope to lose about 70
pounds by september. yup, huge goal, but ill make it.
anyways, im one ranting about my horribleness.

hi ^^

2007-04-05T06:13:25Z

things are pretty good, ive gotten along with my mom alot lately, and i got to talk to amanda again, [ her mom refuses to let me see her/ talk to her because im gay, and she thinks she can change amanda, i think she thinks im the one who ''made her gay'' bullshit, i know. it makes me so mad, because were really good friends, i love her alot, and she needs me, and i need her.but if i come into contact with her i get a restraining order -_-
very fucked up.
i got rollerblades <3 i loveee to rollerblade, while not breaking my ass. if thats possible. id somehow prove it to be possible though with my luck o.o